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    BEAM OF LIGHT

    It has been about two months now since I cut my hair and changed my hair colour to brunette again. I’m happy with the change and surprisingly it wasn’t even that hard to get used to it. Shorter hair feels quite natural. I’ve been dreaming of this kind of French bob for about a year now and at the end of the summer I had the guts to do it, yay! No regrets! I’m actually having a hard time to imagine a longer hair now… Oops, haha! So it’s finally beginning to look like autumn outside, even though we have had some amazingly warm days in August and September in…

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    BEING ALONE VS. LONELINESS

    Long gone are the days that I could spent by myself, doing whatever or whatever not. I love being alone as much I love being in a company of family or friends. Before having a family, I loved making a decision of being alone once in a while. As I became a parent plus five years ago, I haven’t had a lot of extra time on my hands. Not to mention me-time. This all was anticipated and accepted. Having a family and being a mother has its perks and have been dreams of mine as long as I can remember. I’ve never wanted anything more than a family of my…

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    RESTLESS

    Since having a summer vacation I’ve been quite absent from the social media. It wasn’t a conscious decision, but I’ve had a lot of time to myself and to my thoughts. I’ve been wondering about my purpose and my direction in life. It feels like being a little more offline has had good influence on my mind. I’m noticing things that I usually wouldn’t in the normal and rather hectic life of mine. After ending my studies and graduating I’ve felt a little restless. I feel like I could have space for something to fill up the emptiness that the end of my studies brought to me. Yet, at the…

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    THE REUNION

    It’s been a while now since I’ve written articles in my blog. I’ve had a nice couple of weeks to myself, just to soak in the vacation mood. I got to admit though, it’s not easy. Not when you got to small children waking you up at 6 am every single morning! Despite the early mornings I’ve had time to do things on my own, in my own pace and it’s nice for a change. I haven’t had anything planned for these two weeks and I’m so glad I didn’t! My schedule has filled up on it’s own; I’ve had meetings with friends, swimming, eating, hiking, barbecuing… All the stuff…

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    WORK HARD, DREAM BIG

    Ihanaa katsoa ulos kahvilan ikkunasta keskellä vilkasta Helsinkiä näin aurinkoisena päivänä. Ihmiset ovat ottaneet kesävaatteet käyttöönsä; miehet ovat pukeutuneet värikkäisiin shortseihin ja naiset liehuviin helmoihin. Pieni kevyt tuuli puhaltaa satama-alueelta, olematta kuitenkaan kylmä. Mikäli joku on aamulla liikenteeseen lähtiessään ottanut takin mukaansa, löytyy se nyt kourassa taikka olalta roikkumassa tarpeettomana. On vaikeaa istua kahvilassa koulutöiden parissa, kun mieleni tekisi kylmää kermajäätelöä Kaivarin penkeillä nautiskellen. Osa-aikaisena opiskelijana ja täysaikaisena äitiyslomalaisena minun on kuitenkin miltei pakko hyödyntää jok’ikinen vapaa-ajan kolonen tai lapsenvahdin käytettävyys tutkielmani edistämiseen. Pikkuhiljaa seitsemännen opintovuoteni lähestyessä alkavat opinnot jo hieman tökkimään, vaikka olenkin ikuinen opiskelija luonteeltani. En vain jaksaisi enää niitä pakollisia suorituksia, vaikka vapaaehtoisia kursseja ja opintoja tekisin…